Quick Disruption Update
This will be followed with a (much!) longer and more detailed post, but didn’t want to keep anyone in suspense. It was a really good session in terms of the work that got done and reconnecting, although painfully brutal. I feel like a wrung out dishcloth. 🙂 I had a WHOLE lot of transference going on which I’ll talk about in my post, but BN was solid, empathic, caring and a damned effective therapist. We’re good. OK I am a little angry at him (and seem to be making a habit of saying “fuck you.” Again, his response was “that was good.” Therapists are weird. :)) Thank you to everyone for your support. And for being right about BN. I was so scared I was going to lose him and am very grateful it didn’t happen. I am also really angry at my dad. More to follow.
Glad to hear everything went well. It sounds like BN was just how you needed him to be. It’s wonderful that his presence can be steadfast in your journey 🙂
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Glad to hear you are reconnecting and working through all this. Also very glad BN was there for you. Hard to disentangle what is from now and what is from then, but it is good that you are expressing and working on the anger. Be gentle with you. LBG
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I think that many of the most fruitful sessions are also the most brutally painful ones. 😦 I’m so glad to hear that you and BN are good. I hope that you are able to get some rest and have a bit of peace this evening.
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So glad you reconnected even though it was so difficult. I look forward to your detailed follow-up!
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So glad to know that you once again feel BN’s love and care and that you also did some good work in the session. I look forward to reading more about it. I think you are very brave and you are in safe hands.
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